I’m Sandra. I live in Riverside County CA. I’m a single woman pushing 40. I’m gay newly out of the closet as of 2011. I have an MBA. I used to be a hard core baptist (born-again Christian) for many years (starting at age 16). I am an only child.
This blog is about my life.
1. Mental Health – these blogs showcases how I had major depression as a teenager , what caused it (all of my trauma) and how I overcame it when I turned 18. (I went to a psychotherapist when I was 16). This also shows how I was introduced to something new in 2008: stigma. I wasn’t “new” to mental illness in 2008 since I had MD in 1991. But since coming into county mental health services – I can say without a doubt that the worst place to get mental health services is through a psychiatrist. I am also anti-psychiatry and pro psychotherapy.
I was never diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, however, I believe I had it in my 20s. I also talk about my car accident in 2003 and how I got diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder instead of PTSD in 2003. I also show how I started on an SSRI from my general practitioner.
2. Religion and the like- This blog section shows all of the psychological damage of being in a cult from age 16-27. The cult is called “Independent Fundamental Baptist Churches”. Details of how I decided to go to Hyles Anderson College are in this part of my blog. This topic also shows how I became an atheist in early 2013. It shows my endless questions in the spiritual part of my life. It also shows my new-age belief.
3. Hip – This blog section starts in 1989 when I first dislocated my right hip at age 13. It shows how I was bullied in 8th grade and 10th grade. It continues through today to my recovery from a total hip replacement at age 38 in August 2013. As of Feb 3 2014 I will be 25 weeks post op.
Self love is found throughout the posts since self love is new to me as well as heart based living and meditation (I don’t mean “prayer” to some god). I have insight to my health and you will see that in many posts. I have two family posts and one other post that are sticky’s that are attached permanently to the home page so others can read about my mom and dad’s side of my family. This blog is a part of healing for me. It is like a mirror for me.
I earned an MBA in 2011 and an undergrad in business in 2009. I decided in 2014 that I must get my masters in (either) clinical psychology or counselling psychology and get my LMFT. I know I can only use that in California and that the LCSW would be more practical, but I did the practical – with my MBA. I write to help myself and others. If someone finds insight to themselves by reading this, great.
Warning: my posts do not follow APA standards. I may use a passive voice in them. I also may use gender bias when I write since this is not a research paper! Many typos can also be found. I edit them once before I publish them and again after I publish them.